A few weeks ago, I successfully turned in another chapter to my advisor. I thought for sure that would give me the momentum and confidence I need to plow through the next chapter, the next and the one after that. Sadly, my perceived ambition does not get along well with my actual ability to motivate myself.
Motivation to complete my dissertation is NOT the problem. There's a laundry list of things, personal and professional, that motivate me to complete my dissertation in the shortest amount of time possible. So, why can't I just sit down and pound on my keyboard for 10 hours and bang out some inspired work?
I have no idea.
If anyone has an answer, I'm open to it.
I do however think that no matter the motivation behind finishing, the amount of time you have to do your work, and then the pressure that mounts with each passing moment, there is just one thing holding me back - me. It's an odd feeling. How is it that I, the one with all the power, all the motivation, all the reason in the world to keep moving forward - how is it that I am still stuck?
Enough blogging, back to writing. Chapter 8, you'll be mine before the new year (or so I hope!)
